June 18th, 2013
“Throw the flowers while they are alive” my friend would say. This quote has stuck with me for more than twenty years. It means we ought to say the loving thoughts, compliments, and kind words to people while they are living. I do my best to live this way as I compliment people daily, sometimes even strangers on the street. I can be found sharing kindness with the coffee vendor that serves me daily or even high-five a young boy who just graduated kindergarten.
I personally had people “throw flowers to me” after I shared with students my decision to step away as co-teacher of the Path of White Mesa. I knew it was time to make space for a new path and expand my wild cosmic heart. After sharing about my heart-centered journey, I invited students to listen to their heart and where they are called to more deeply lead, serve, and love.
After sharing my gratitude with the students I had taught for more than six years, I received many responses filled with overwhelming appreciation and love. I hadn’t realized the impact I had with the participants and how much my presence meant to them. As students began sending their reflections and gratitude to me, I felt like it was hearing my eulogy while I was still alive.
I am sharing some responses as a way to spread light, joy, and the impact of sharing kindness.
We all matter. Every one of us matters. Make sure the people in your life know just how blessed you feel.
I thank you always for sharing you and your gifts with us. May this new journey surround you in only love and light. You are a beautiful shining light.
The light has formed you, the light has carried you, through light you witness darkness, through light you know love. It is time to spread your wings and fly so that all of us who remain earth bound can see where you lead us.
I have so deeply loved our circles in Goshen of which you were such an important part. Another part of me is so glad for you in making this bold change and creating a new space for your own expansion. I am grateful to have had you in my circle for these past six years.
I’m going to miss you at the White Mesa gatherings. I love your smile, fantastic sense of humour, and the way you spoke and taught during the white Mesa gatherings.
You are the light that shuts out the dark. You are the essence of love and the hope we all hold on to. Continue being who you are. Your journey is perfect. Just as planned. Beauty, in every aspect of the word.
Thank you for all the work, play, stories, laughter, and energy that you shared with me and the White Mesa circle over the years. You were the one that always made space and took everyone in! And thanks especially for your big smile and bright eyes. I hope to see that smile again soon!
I admire your courage to go off on your new path and honor your knowing that this is the time. One of the statements I will remember you saying is, “Do it afraid!”
I will miss your hugs and your affectionate welcomes every time I came for the White Mesa weekend. I send you many blessings and may your new journey be splendid in beauty, more growth and great prosperity. I love you and you will be always in my heart as a sister and teacher. Thank you for all you have given me these past years. I will miss your laughter.
I will miss your soothing yet steady presence. You have added the feminine heart to the white Mesa teachings and grounded our work with love, patience ….. In the most sacred container.
I know that you will forge a light path that is very sacred and powerful by creating a space where each person will have their own unique experience of the Divine. I am looking forward to being a part of it.
Thank you for always holding space. I would look up and know how grounded and present you were with each of us. I am grateful I had the chance to be in circle with you — and I know we will be in circle again.
I wish you only love and light on your continued heart journey. Thank you for your amazing hugs, contagious laughter, and your smiles. I will miss hearing your meditations and channeled messages. Yet, I carry your wisdom with me.
You will be missed. I know you are following your path and where it leads you. You have always led with your heart as our teacher and I am filled with immense gratitude.
Keep drumming, divine one. The world needs to keep hearing your rhythm.
June 14th, 2013
Greeted by a Warbler
Lunch with an Eastern Bluebird
Storytelling with Grackles in the afternoon
Early evening with Turkey Vultures
Home at last with the winged-ones
A Cardinal flies across the field;
Lands on a branch and
Sings its rhythmic piercing song
Loud cries above my head
As a Blue Jay claims its territory in the tree
A Red-winged Blackbird chases the crows away
Evening arrives, softly—
As a Red-tailed Hawk
Greets me goodnight
June 12th, 2013
Tune into your body.
Notice anyplace tense and breathe there.
Like a radio station that we adjust the knob to remove the static —
take a moment to adjust your body to remove any static.
Send your breath there.
Be aware of your body in this moment.
Your body is teaching you right now where it wants attention.
Just notice and breathe. Everything starts with awareness.
Be mindful of your body.
With breath and clarity, sense the breath between the breaths.
Drop in a little bit more.
Beyond the physical body, breathe into the spiritual body. Notice.
Tune in now to your heart center.
Breathe in and out of your heart center.
Deep within you, connect to the root center of You.
Notice anything drawing you deeper within.
Be in your heart center.
Awaken to YOU.
June 11th, 2013
June 7th, 2013
It’s all nature
Chipmunks hopping along the field
Deer crossing a wooden path
As the wind blows in a southern direction
So many birds fly across the sky — heaven on earth
What are all their names?
What is mine?
It’s all the same
June 6th, 2013
June 4th, 2013
I’m hyper-sensitive. I have come to discover that means I am an empath.
I feel other peoples’ pain as if it were my own, even if I don’t know them. My face loses all color and I turn “sheet-white” if I watch something devastating or really sad. I cry easily at Hallmark shows, Maxwell House Coffee commercials, or even melancholy song lyrics.
I have known this for many years and have been made fun of for it. People would say, “You’re too sensitive” or “Lighten up.” For a long time, I thought that it was a bad thing until I realized my sensitivity made me a better listener and a better visionary.
It’s been a huge asset as an entrepreneur, writer, leader and artist. I relate to people in ways other people are not able to do so. I often understand what they seek and aspire to. I relate to their emotions. It lets me work with clients on more of an emotional level. I see past the facades and can speak to, create, and offer inspiration for what really matters.
Being an empath has allowed me to take a deeper dive inside my own heart as well as have in-depth conversations with those around me. I am able to question more, probe deeper, and create space for expansion.
It’s also been hugely beneficial in allowing me to connect when I teach, present, and facilitate. My empathetic ways allow me to feel my way through conversations on an intuitive level. It allows me to really “see” people for who they truly are.
Of course, it is not always easy. When someone else is in pain, it can be hard to distance myself from it. I tend to take on too much of what and who is around me. I want to help other people — at times to the detriment of myself.
So, how do I navigate in the world as an empath? I know I don’t want to go down the rabbit hole when I am feeling overwhelmed and I don’t want to push people away in order to not feel. I need to be able to engage and be present and let go in order to best serve.
For me, I do my best to balance the gifts of feeling deeply with the grace of letting go. I live with vulnerability and also have very clear boundaries.
I wouldn’t change being an empath for the world. I have come to accept that to feel is to be alive.
It’s the raw emotions that allow real meaning and connection to flow into creation and inspiration.
The challenge is to understand when to let it in and when to let go. And the challenge is also when to let in just enough to allow for deep connections, compassionate experiences and extraordinary creativity.
I’ve danced with this process of letting in and letting go for as long as I can remember. It has been a driving force for some intense journal writings, channeling messages, and connections with many mentors and spiritual teachers.
A few years ago when I started Toning the OM™, for an entirely different reason, I found something else that’s helps me process life as an empath — meditation and mindfulness.
It doesn’t mean I still don’t cry easily or close my eyes when something profound is happening. It means I can allow my emotions to flow rather than consume me. What it also does is allow me to understand when I’m being drawn in and then make a more conscious effort about whether I’m going to open to empathy or detach with love. And it reminds me to breathe and not get stuck in the shallowness within my own body.
Honestly, it is not easy and it takes work. There are days I am lousy at it. And I’m still learning just how important it is to stop and take slow, deep breaths. Having awareness of my breath and being mindful has made me more awake and alive in the world.
Being of service is an honor and privilege. Recognizing what emotions bring compassion and what emotions bring exhaustion have been part of my life-long journey. Identifying the waves of emotion as they rise, acknowledging them, and pausing to breathe has empowered me to lead and serve more humbly.
I’d love to know what your experiences have been with this.
What has your journey of the heart revealed about you?
June 3rd, 2013