December 5th, 2013
Every child has known God,
Not the God of names,
Not the God of don’ts,
Not the God who ever does
But the God who knows only 4 words
And keeps repeating them, saying:
“Come Dance with Me.”
– Hafiz (1320-1389)
December 3rd, 2013
Longing to experience the sacred as I navigate through life, I have read hundreds of spiritual books, traveled to many holy places, met with dozens of beloved teachers, and sat in meditation until my legs (or entire body) fell asleep. Many of the methods have worked and at times they haven’t. But in my quest for the sacred within, I have discovered one way that allows me to experience the divine and go beyond the veil of my own limited beliefs and illusions. That way is the role of midwife to my heart.
My most profound experiences as a midwife to my heart emerge when I am able to step out of the way and be overwhelmed by something far greater than my own opinions, fears, doubts, and worries. Being a midwife of my heart has humbled me, awakened me, challenged me, and healed me. I am being called to show more vulnerability, expand my definition of extended family, and share my deep awareness and emotions with other midwives of the heart. It is our profound connections, our deep desires, and our wild cosmic hearts that connects us in the vastness of inner abyss.
My life and my work has been about being a midwife to the wild and wonderful ─ to the unknown and the uncertainty. Being a midwife to my heart requires a delicate blend of curiosity, courage, trust, wisdom, and the willingness to sit in the pain and discomfort. It’s a willingness to bear witness to what’s happening on the inside and take a deep dive within. As my heart expands, a new way of being is born ─ breath by breath. Every moment becomes sacred and tender.
Being a midwife to my heart can mean risk getting hurt and being mocked. But not doing it means losing some of the most meaningful connections possible. It means charting new waters, leaning into joy, daring greatly, loving deeply, living courageously, and sharing my heart with those who have earned my trust.
The birth of more love, more joy, more peace, and more connection is worth the effort. By being a midwife to my heart, I’ve birthed many meaningful relationships. I have lost some too. Yet, being a midwife to my heart has taught me to appreciate each person and the role they played in birthing new life in the world.
Perhaps you feel called to be a midwife of your heart ─ to the wild, the wonderful, and the unknown. Being a midwife of my heart is a journey and I don’t know where it is going to take me next. I’m ready for new birth and more connection. You are invited to join me in exploring what is too deep for words and too powerful for meaning, yet a miraculous experience of the heart.
Have you experienced being a midwife to your heart? I’d love to hear your thoughts on this.
December 2nd, 2013
I embrace the teacher within me.
I welcome the student in me.
I invite the lessons of life.
I remain open to learn from others.
I honor every moment as an opportunity.
I am inspired by all who surround me.
I learn from stillness.
I enjoy the wisdom from everyone.
I am open to the flow of learning and teaching.
November 26th, 2013
As I stepped into a crowded subway car, the conductor asked everyone to stand in and stand clear of the closing doors. After the doors closed, the conductor’s voice boomed into the subway car, “Number 6 Bronx Express.” It was so loud, it sounded like she said, “Namaste Bronx 6 Express.” I smiled at the thought of hearing I might be on a Namaste subway car.
What if as I stood in the crowed train that the light in me saw the light in you? I watched as people gave up their seats to those in need and held the doors open for others. I observed a passenger help a mother with her baby carriage and also assisted an older woman with her bags.
Yes, perhaps I was on the Namaste train. Perhaps I always am. Maybe I can make each train the Namaste Express. When I am willing to look past the façade, the light in me is the light in you.
Next stop on my train ─ peace.
November 25th, 2013
Today, like every other day, we wake up empty
and frightened. Don’t open the door to the study
and begin reading. Take down the dulcimer.
Let the beauty we love be what we do.
There are hundreds of ways to kiss the ground.
November 20th, 2013
Women from all over the US and BC gathered at Kalani to be a part of the Wild Cosmic Heart Retreat. I opened the circle with gratitude, thanking each one of them for showing up, for having the courage to express their heart, and for trusting me to create a space where they could be themselves. I encouraged participants to share what brought them to Hawaii and the retreat. I invited folks to take a breath, move beyond their thoughts, and speak from their heart.
What happened next was beyond words. Each woman spoke from their heart, many through tears, and shared their intention for the week. Sacred space and safety had been created. And that allowed each woman to show up as is ─ real, curious, scared, hopeful, open, and vulnerable.
From our opening circle, we allowed ourselves to be seen, heard, and valued. We showed up vulnerable. We did it afraid. We opened our hearts. We tried new things (and foods). And we even slowly walked around a large tree 11 times as part of a mindfulness practice. (Note: I had no idea the mindfulness walk would take an hour and fifteen minutes as I created the practice in the moment. It was one of the most profound practices all week.)
The journey now continues as we explore what this wild cosmic heart feels like and needs as we re-enter into our daily life. The edges of our heart have been softened and I sensed that we all learned there is no life with a closed heart.
I learned that real connection happens when we show up wholeheartedly and that means allowing ourselves to be vulnerable. As Brené Brown says, “Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren’t always comfortable, but they’re never weakness.”
I learned that I connect best with people when I am seen, heard, and valued. I create sacred space for others to do the same. I honor laughter and tears. I love deeply and live passionately. I am inspired easily. I live vulnerability. I show up wholeheartedly.
This is dedicated to the amazing women who opened their Wild Cosmic Hearts with me at Kalanai Oceanside Retreat Center.
November 19th, 2013
I choose peace
I choose to be peace
I choose joy
I choose to be joy
I choose light
I choose to be light
I choose creativity
I choose to be creative
I choose happiness
I choose to be happy
I choose love
I choose to be love
I choose to BE
November 14th, 2013
Spend five minutes slowing your breath and opening your wild cosmic heart. This meditation was created near Kalani Oceanside Retreat Center on the
Big Island of Hawaii.
Mantra: I am the Wild Cosmic Heart.
It is dedicated to the 2013 Wild Cosmic Heart Women who took a deep dive into their hearts.
November 13th, 2013
When you open the heart the space you allow the possibility of the real you to step forward.
When you open the heart space, you see yourself more authentically.
When you open the heart space, you see the world as a reflection of you.
When you open the heart space, you meet yourself more lovingly.
When you open the heart space, you surrender to mystery of the unknown.
When you open the heart space, you allow stillness to be your teacher.
When you open the heart space, you allow deep wisdom to arise.
When you open the heart space, you become the heart space.
November 1st, 2013
How do we return to our wild, untamed selves?
How can we slow down long enough to listen to our own heart?
How do we open up to vulnerability and trust we are always enough?
How can we give ourselves permission to be silly, to not know, to let our heart teach us, and to be ourselves without editing?
These are just some of the questions I will take a deep dive into during the upcoming Wild Cosmic Heart Retreat in Hawaii at Kalani Oceanside, November 3 – 9, 2013. I am thrilled to be joined by women all around the country and Canada who are willing to take dig deep inside their own wild cosmic heart.
Look for some great insights, stories, and photos when I return.
Until then, you are invited to ask yourself:
What is your heart saying now? And now? And now?
Keep asking. Keep listening. And enjoy every moment.
From my wild cosmic heart to yours…